Lost and Never Found

Moments are born and die,
Years pass by,
But this smile's still a lie.
Unfulfilled desires
Suppressed in deep reservoirs.
Their muffled screams
As they push out to explode,
Within a life left unexplored.
Heaven knows where I'm headed,
My head aches with feelings long dead
Every thought, rotting and stinking
Frothing in its own misery.
Yet the question remains,
Why choose me?
An undeserving host,
Manipulated, troubled, misled,
An ever wandering ghost
With no end to the pain I hold
In my heart, closed and cold,
Forever lost, never to be found